Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas everybody :D!!!
I hope the day has been good so far for all of you.
Anyways. My family set out for Florida this morning at 6 a.m.
Well the day is gone now, and as I am typing this I am sitting at a desk in Columbia, South Carolina in a hotel room.
Every single fast food restaurant was closed today exept for the Waffle House next door. Everybody in this state talks with a drawl... I love listneing to it :D
Man... we must have done 12-13 hours in the car today. But surprisingly it wasn't that bad. I watched some movies on my dad's laptop, started knitting myself a scarf, read, looked at scenery, and ate food... lol.
It's been a wierd christmas to say the least. But, it's been good all the same. Anyways. I guess I will write some more later, if I can... but for now I'll say goodnight. A Merry Merry Christmas too you all!
K

Happy Holidays

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!! (in 3 days)
I'm wishing you one now because I will be in the car driving south on Christmas day..with the fam.
yay, I'm so excited that I'm finally off school. Today was awesome. Worship went good this morning. Thank goodness, considering our lack of practice this morning. But it went good. Especially the korean, silent night. That was quite wonderful.
Anyways have a happy holiday :D Jesus is born!
K

In need of some rest

I just wrote out an entire blog. But then I read it, and realized that I didn't want to say any of the stuff I had written down... do any of the other fellow bloggers do that?? hmm. I realized that I really havent been very profound lately. And I haven't written many blogs about things that are super deep, or super spiritual. But, I say go with the flow.. hey?
3 more days of school left, and then the holidays. I'd say, it's about time. They work us too hard at school these days. All I can say is that I've earned this christmas break... big time...
Well maybe not as much as the gr. 12's who have like a billion ISU's due this week. but Still. I'm tired, I want to see my cousins, I want to just sit for once. Anyways. Later
K

Back to the sitcom

Going back to the sitcom. Sometimes I wish that life would be more exciting. Or by that I mean that my life would contain a different kind of exciting that seems to be null and void at the moment, in my life anyways.
Imagination. It's a bad thing sometimes, but it's also a wonderful thing. It just depends on where you let your mind wander. For me, my imagination seems to raise my expectations. Because I imagine something as I would like to be, and then when the moment finally comes, it wasn't nearly as wonderful as I imagined. Which is a shame sometimes. However, sometimes the opposite happens, when I think that something will be horrible, and then the actual experience turns out to be a good experience. I don't have an example for you today, because I don't feel like giving any.
Hmmm...
K

Confused

Today was wierd.
This morning was wierd. The song I played didn't seem to be recieved that well. I was so excited about it. I've actually been waiting for about a month to play that song. Just because It comes straight from my heart, and it talks about what God is speaking into my life and the lives of other people. I don't sing to impress people, I sing because music conveys emotion that speaking never could, and because I want to glorify God. But maybe the song I sang today was just a little to personal, a little too daring, a little too ... whatever you want to call it... I really don't know. I just didn't get such a hot vibe after I played. I know ppl liked it, but did people hear what the song was saying? Did they hear the message, were they effected, did they feel something afterward?
I just feel confused.
K

Reality vs. Imagination

Not real, but still...
I picture myself in her position.
Imagine what it would be like to be her.
Wonder how it would feel to do that, be that.
Knowing it will happen one day.
The anticipation alone makes me want to skip all these years.
Yet the joy of it all makes me want to savour the time I have now.
For I know that my steps are being guided; my life has a pre-ordained plan.
So what I imagine now, is only half the joy of what it will be like in REALITY, years from now
For that will be real.

Stressed out much?

The blogging world seems to be slowing down, or so it seems. People seem to be posting less, and commenting less. Maybe they're all getting tired of blogging. Or maybe it's just a busy time of year. Personally I think it is the latter.

This week alone I have 4 tests. Science and Math, which I finished today, and then tomorrow I have the TD Choir test (which btw I had no idea about until Kathleen informed me about an hour ago) and then on Friday I have a french test. Pretty intense if you ask me.
But life right now is exciting: with school, and plays, and christmas plans, and contests and friends and the like. And on top of all that trying to learn german to be prepared for next summer... man It's crazy. Oh btw....

Ich habe vier Geschenke unter dem Baum

Now I know you don't speak german, but if you really want to know what that means.. look it up.

Anyways...I plan to keep my stress level at a low, becuase I don't do well under stress. I plan to enjoy the last few days of school, and then the holidays.
That's all
K

Sometimes i think it might be nice if life were like a tv sitcom. If for just a second I could escape reality, and enter a world where all problems are solved in half an hour, where all wishes are granted. Where the bad guys were caught, and the girl always got the guy (or the other way around)
I know it wouldn't actually be better than real life. but I'd like to try it out for like a day...
K

Jesus, hold me into your heart, into your heart <3

Short-term friend
I knew you,
Had fun with you,
But now you left,
And it seems like all that is left are the fond memories,
And a hope that more memories will be made

K :(

Dreams..

Have you ever wished that one of your dreams would come true. Now, I'm not talking about dreams as in life goals, and aspriations. I'm talking about dreams, as in those deep thoughts you have when you're sleeping.
Often, when you are dreaming you are unaware that you are dreaming, and instead you treat the dream as though it were real life, and think that what you are dreaming is actually happening.
What I'm asking is, have you ever woken up from a good dream, realized that you were in fact dreaming, and then wished that the dream had actually happened?
I have.
Those are the kind of dreams, where you meet up with one of your long lost friends, or you win a trip to some tropical island with your family, or _________ (fill in blank with desired wish).
This actually happened to me recently. I was dreaming about something or other, and I realized in my dream that I was having a lot of fun, and then I suddenly woke up. As soon as I realized it was a dream, I sighed, and said, "aww man... too bad" lol..
I don't know, sometimes I wish for those really good dreams to come true and to actaually happen in my day-to-day life. *sigh.. oh well
K

I realized that I have never put any pictures in any of my blogs. So I decided to put pictures in this one. After I decided this, I asked myself, "Kirstyn, what pictures should I put in my blog?" and then I said to myself, "Self, put in pictures of camp, because camp is a wonderful place, full of friends and good times, and maybe even an adventure or two." So, my fellow blog readers, venture with me into your free tour of Bethel Park.

Bethel Park Youth Camp 2006 - otherwise known as BPYC '06

This is a picture of Myself, Then Ben, then Tom, and then my good friend Sarah (Left to right), or bubbles as she is known as during our week at BPYC... We met Ben and Tom on one of the days at camp, they were in the worship band. Which was awesome btw. Dan the worship man was awesome..

This, to my right, is a picture of Mike, and myself. Oh maan.. good times. Mike was the best story teller I have ever met. He'd just start telling this random story (most of the time it wasn't true) haha, and then this crowd would gather, and by the end everyone listening was killing themselves laughing. It was the best...

This is a picture of Larissa, Myself, Steph, and Anna. My great friends at camp (I think sarah is taking the picture, which would explain why she's not there) Good times, sleeping in the same cabin, sneaking out, causing trouble, haha jks...

Haha... what can I say about this picture? It was during our late night activity. Fear Factor night or something like that... the guys had to spread peanut butter over their fronts, and the the girls from their teams had to throw marshmellows onto the peanut butter... person with the most marshmellows after 2 min wins.. who thought up this game? I have no idea.. haha..
The whole gang.. in front of the old tabernackle, or is it the new one? lol.. Nobody knows anymore... This was on the last day of camp. Sigh.. such a sad day. Anyways... that's it. Until next year. Sorry that I couldn't put in more pictures, but I think this blog is long enough....

BPYC ' 06
That's all.. K

So it snowed today, and a little bit last night I suppose.
I started my christmas shopping today. The mall was busy; full of people, probably doing the exact same thing as me. Every store I went into had their Christmas music soundtrack playing in the background, and kids were lining up to go and sit on Santa's knee.

The meaning of Christmas has really been warped over the years. I see that when I go to the mall. It's seems to be about giving, family, having the "Christmas Spirit" in our hearts. What exactly is the "Christmas Spirit" anyways?

Giving gifts, family, and even sitting on Santa's knee can all be good things. But that's not what Christmas is about.
Christmas is about Jesus. Celebrating his birth. That God sent his son so that we could be saved.

People seem so hestiant to even meantion Jesus on Christmas these days. Everything is about Santa, and presents, and Candy canes etc. In Nathan Philips' Square downtown they even changed the name of the Christmas tree to the "Holiday tree" because they were scared to offend anybody by using the word Christmas. What is up with that?

I just feel that this year we should focus on the real meaning of Christmas...
Jesus. Jesus should be our focus this season, and what he came to do for us should matter more than the presents we open on Christmas day.

K

Secrets

Secrets in general are a good thing, I suppose. For example if you're planning a surprise party for someone, then you should not go tell them that you are, because then it wouldn't be a surprise. lol Obviously.

Or another example would be telling your best friend who you like, or what you like, or how you feel. It's a secret between you and your best friend - and that secret makes you stronger in the end, because you learn to trust eachother, and also it's good because after all, it's not good to keep things bottled up inside you, you've got to tell at least one person.. right?
But sometimes I think secrets are misused.

Like when you're hanging out with a group of friends and all of the sudden two or three of the people in the group start quietly talking about something with eachother. In other words it's a secret they can't share with the other people in the group. In that case, the friends that don't know the secret feel left out. And I know from personal experience, being the odd one out is a horrible feeling.

Secrets are meant to be just that. Secrets. So don't talk about them when people that can't know are around. Talk about them in private... when everybody in the room knows what is being shared.

Sometimes I feel like the word secret is contradicting itself. Like when people flaunt that they've got a secret, but they won't share it with you? Why are they talking about it then, if they don't want anybody to know? Sometimes I wonder if they're doing that because they want you to know... but ... I'm not sure, that doesn't make sense.

Maybe I'm all wrong on this....

I just know that if there's a secret out there that you can't share.. then don't talk about it. Because It's a secret.

se.cret 'sE-kr&t' (adjective) 1. hidden, 2. closemouthed, 3. undercover,
lets try and keep it that way...

that's all

I'm completely at a loss for words right now. I think its because I am extremely tired. I woke up this morning thinking that it was like 2 o'clock in the morning, I was just about to fall back asleep when I heard my mom walking around outside my door, and realized that it was indeed morning, and that I had few precious minutes left of sleeping time. It was a horrible feeling, and a horrible way to start the day. But the day turned out alright, in spite of me being tired

p.s. I found my agenda! Hooraa.

When somebody hears the word "Christian" what comes to mind? In a secular culture, Christians sometimes have a bad wrap. We've been called Hyprocrites, Self-centred, Prideful, Judging. And you know what? I don't blame them for calling us that, because I think it's true.

So many times I've been guilty of treating people as though I think i'm better than them because they don't know Jesus, or they don't believe in Jesus, and then the next second I tell them that I'm in the worship band at my school, and that my daddy's a pastor. What's up with that?

Do we expect people to listen to us when we tell them about Jesus if they can see by how we act that we don't even believe what we're telling them?

We live like our Faith doesn't or shouldn't impact our everyday life. We go to church cuz we have to, we pray, while all the while thinking of other things, and we attend youth conferences but when they're done we go back to how we were before, as though nothing happened. Why then should people care, or be interested in Jesus if we don't even act like we care.

This same theme, [breaking free from routine] comes back to me again and again.

If, and I say If we really believe that Jesus died for us, and that we're spending eternity with him then why aren't we more excited!? Why do live like we do; disregarding the truth, not living out what we proclaim, not showing through our actions that Jesus is our savoir?

It's late, and I really don't have all the answers. But in a perfect world we'd be ecstatic. We'd be living for Jesus like there was no tomorrow everyday.

I know that there are probably a lot of flaws in this blog, but you have an opinion. Form your own, this is mine. For now, I'm gonna try and keep on pressing in on God, and i'm gonna continue to break free from this Christian rut we've dug ourselves into. I wanna be excited about Jesus again!

That's all

So another weekend is here. Another weekend I'm spending at my house, chilling with myself. I'm getting a little bit tired of these "alone" weekends lol. The thing is, is that I try super hard to find people to get together with on the weekend. But weekend after weekend, my plans have fallen through, because people have been busy, or away, or they can't get a ride (or vise versa). Whatever the reason it doesn't matter. What matters is that I'm by my lonesome... again...
because like normal my plans have fallen through.
But, I've rented myself a movie, and I intend to curl up on the couch tonight and watch it, bowl of popcorn in lap, fireplace on, in a comfortable position. If i'm lucky it'll make me cry (don't ask, it's a girl thing) and my night will turn out fairly decent.

P.S. I lost my agenda, and it is very near and dear to my heart, so if you see it, please return it.

That's all

I have come to the conlcusion that afternoon naps are a wonderful thing. Today, after school, I came home, went upstairs, grabbed a blanket and flopped down on my bed, and didn't get up until now. And I feel so much more rested. Considering that I was one very tired girl. So to any of those who don't believe me, try it. For I am convinced that nappy shnappies are very good things.

And yes I just said nappy shnappies..
life is more fun saying it that way

Wow. wierd day.
Heh. I started writing a blog, but I just deleted it all, because I realized it was boring. And nobody wants to read a boring blog. I'm at a loss for words at the moment, and I have nothing even remotely profound to say. All I do have to say however is that today was wierd. Why you ask? Well,

1. I saw a lady walking around that I had never seen before, and I wanted to know who she was, but I never got around asking.

2. I stood in shock at the small act that made me change my opinion on the matter at hand in an instant (whatever that means) *Must be kirstyn speaking in code again

3. There was a colouring contest in french class.

4. And I have no homework.

And that to me classify's as wierd.
That's all

*Note Wierd does not mean bad, it simply means amusing,
which is less than funny, but good none the less

JESUS we're LiVinG for your Name

We'll never be ashamed of You

Our praise, and all we are today

Take it All

*Let that become our prayer, our life; dedicated lovers of Jesus Christ
[Breaking free from routine]

Beauty

I'm sure that girls out there will agree with me. It's good to feel beautiful. You know those days where you feel like your hair couldn't look better, you just happen to be wearing your new or favourite outfit, and you woke up this morning with your eyes wide open, ready to face the day with a smile and a good attitude? I love those days. It's the kind of day where you just know it. Nobody needs to tell you so, nobody needs to say, you're looking nice today . And the best thing is that nobody can convince you otherwise. Because You simply feel beautiful.
And that's a wonderful thing. So be confident, feel good about yourself, and feel beautiful, simply because you are, we all are.
That's all
K

Note* This post is for the girls out there that read my blog

I had my first ever Pop-tart today. I know, I know, never having a pop-tart before today may seem like I lived a deprived childhood, but my mom never buys things like that.. lol. This morning my homeroom had a waffle and pop-tart party lol. We had like 3 toasters going, and hotchocolate. We also had icecream, but i'm still not exactly sure why.
But overall, I must say Pop-tarts aren't so bad. I quite enjoyed mine today.
That's all
K

I wish. I wish for a lot of things. And sometimes I wish I could just know what people are thinking. I feel like sometimes I'm playing a guessing game. But feelings are trivial. They change constantly, and sometimes I don't know if i'm coming or going. However, I know it would backfire in more ways than one if I knew what people were thinking.

For one, even as I'm thinking about it now, I realize that it would elimenate relationship among people. Guys would no longer have to tell girls that they like them (or vise versa), You would no longer have to tell someone you're sorry, and you wouldn't have to pay someone a compliment. Because that person would already know.

And you know what? As i'm dwelling on this thought right now I'm realizing that the kind of relationship that we would have with people if we knew what they were thinking is sometimes like the relationship we have with God.

God knows what we're thinking. He knows it before we think it. God knows that I love him. But he still wants me to tell him that. God knows when I've sinned, and I know that he'll forgive me of my sins, but I still have to confront him, and to ask him for that forgivness.
If we eliminated conversations with our friends on the basis that we already knew what they were going to say. Then there would be relationship.

It's the same with God. Without that constant talking, worshiping, and listening to God, there is no relationship with him. We don't really know God. Going to church, reading the bible are things that help us get to know ABOUT God, but the key is actually knowing him, and that comes from relationship.
So I guess to wrap it up. I take it back. I don't wish that I could know what people are thinking.... well.. maybe just once in a while. ;)
That's all

Remember the days of Gorgey guy, and Balcony boy....
Where the time was sad and happy all at the same time. For we knew that it would end soon and that Dancing dude would no longer come back.
Why oh, why we ask ourselves could we have not had a british accent?

Rooooockk Ooon.

Those were the best of times and the worst of times.
Considering we had to work very hard to ditch a certain couple.
Sigh... For I miss those days; looking at old yearbooks in the thick of night, and staring blistfully from the balcony, our eyes pealed for something beautiful.
But, time goes on, and all we have are the memories
And so is the story of Gorgey guy and Balcony boy

*Note: Abi is probably the only person who will get this piece of bunk that I have written. For it was meant to be lighthearted. It is not anything even remotely profound, but I had fun writing it. Enjoy!

.::Culture::.

The crap that we fill our minds with these days is crazy. From T.V. music, internet, advertisements. I feel like anywhere I look i'm bombarded with profanity, degrading women, sexual explicitness, violence, racism.. i'm sure you get the picture. And i'm truely bothered by it.
I feel like this culture has made

• life no longer precious,
  
• it's made true love a joke,
  
• it's made priorities skewed
  
• and made right:wrong, and wrong:right.
  

It's totally contrary to the life God has for us. It's come to a point where to stand up for what
you think is right is looked down upon. People call you stupid, people call you too uptight, people call you too Christian. And you're persecuted non stop for actually taking a stand. It's come to the point where we've become numb to the severity of the situation; where watching or hearing or being any of those things I mentioned doesn't bother us anymore. It's come to the point where people would rather just do it instead of question what it's gonna do to them in the long run.

I'm so tired of it. I'm so tired of it all.

Many of you might be offended from reading this, Many of you may be thinking, well at least she didn't quote scripture. But, maybe we need to question why it offends us. Why we can live our lives filling our minds with crap that tears us down, and why we become so uptight when God is mentioned. Because it's so much easier not to be accountable for what we do....

Well. I can't live like this. I gotta break free from this routine. This culture.

Jesus is my satisfaction

That's all..

he'll trade her heart <3 . for a trophy .
put it on the shelf . so his friends can see .
suck it up and be a man.

so tired of waiting. there's no more time to lose.
so give me strength to move on. to Live

but anywhere you are. is never too far away.
there's freedom from your scars the mistakes that you've made.
FORGIVEN.
The memories erased. [Maybe], that's the beauty of grace.

CoLLiDe. Crash into me. CoLLiDe. I want to be. Broken by you. and made brand new. CoLLiDe.

Make .something. beautiful
come. out. of .the .ruins

Superficial. Fake. And fleeting. Fashion statements have no meaning.

Only you make me happy.
Only you make me happy.
Everything will change.
But you remain the same.
Only you make me happy

Shake it off. [whenever i'm on the edge of giving in. ]
Shake it off. [cuz nothing can keep me down when i'm living in. Love with you. So help me God]
Shake it off. [Shake it off.]

all this baggage i've kept around.
make it sHatteR on the ground.
cuz all that matters now. is you!

Cuz i breathe. Just to SHOUT out. and I live. just to SCREAM loud. and your love <3.> now. and i'm not running cuz it's pushed me to the edge.

I will not live in silence

Hallelujah. Hallelujah. Hallelujah

Lyrics from Kyrstal Meyers c.d. - dying for a heart

Ever want something you can't have?

A room full of Jesus Freaks ~~~

Coolest thing happened today. The junior girls team had a game today at Middleton. (We lost btw) Anyways, after the game my dad and I decided to stay and watch some of the senior girls game (Middleton vs. Unionville). One of the girls on the Unionville team had a knee brace on, and she must have stepped on her foot wrong or something because all of the sudden she fell to the ground, grabbing her knee and calling frantically for a time out. Of course, the coaches rushed to her, getting her ice and helping her up. Her dad was in the bleachers and he went to her too. Thankfully, she was alright. (Now for the point of my story) As the dad of the girl was coming back onto the bleachers, my dad recognized him from some previous thing and said hello. They talked for a few minutes, and the man told my dad that he had become the pastor of the Unionville Alliance Church. The conversation ended and the dad took his spot in the bleachers again to watch the game.
Meanwhile there was this man beside us, in green converse (very cool i must say), and he had been listening to the conversation. He then said hello and started talking about how he was the youth pastor of 2 of the girls playing on the Middleton team. He said he felt like he should say hello because he overheard us talking about pastoring and such.
I guess the point of my story is that there were a lot of Christians in that gym tonight. I dont know about you, but I never expect someone I see on the street, or at the mall, or in a basketball game to be a christian. I don't know why, but I just don't. It was cool to see that that room was filled with them, and we found it out in a matter of minutes. It was interesting to say the least. I didn't suspect any of the players on the other teams to be Christian, and especially not the man sitting beside me cheering on the Middleton team. Small World
K

Change.
A word humans use to describe a difference in their lives, a new season, a switch in routine.
Yet, the funny thing is, is that we can never figure out whether change is good or bad. I think that it can be both. Example: a new haircut. That's a change isn't it? Is it good or is it bad? That depends on what you think of the final outcome. Do you feel like you can't wait until you can show your friends, or are you already making another appointment with a new hairdresser to fix the mass of hair on your head that didn't turn out how you wanted it to.
Now this is just a minor example. But the fact is, Life changes. We grow up, we make friends, we lose friends, we learn, we make mistakes... I think you get the picture.
Sometimes I want life to stay exactly how it is right at this second in time. And then at other times in life i'm wishing that it were next week, next month, next year.
I've come to the conclusion that change is neither good nor bad, it just is. And it's what we make of it, and how we decide to embrace it that makes the difference. Life takes a little adjusting every now and then. But with friends, and family, and most importantly God we always make it through.
Life is change, change is life.

That's all
Kirstyn

A sense of realization ---

I went out to eat tonight with my family and two other family friends (My mom's old boss, and her husband) to a restaurant called Lonestar. It was actually a lot of fun; lts of good food, and good friends and family. But, about halfway through our meal, I had kind of zoned out from the conversation because I had noticed this man that had come in. He was probably 30 -35 years old and I think that he had down syndrom. He had two canes that he used to support him when he walked, and he was with an older gentleman and lady that looked like his parents. The point of my story is that at one point while I was observing (lol) I saw one of the waitresses say hello to him as she was walking past. He said hello back and then the next instant just broke into this big smile. It was one of those grins that stretch from ear to ear and just light up an entire room. I dont' think that anybody else noticed this gentleman, but I did. He looked so happy, like he didn't have a care in the world, and you know what maybe he didn't.

It got me thinking. I realized again just how blessed I really am. I sit here in front of my own computer, with a room to myself, and clothes in my closet. I'm full from having a full dinner tonight, and my family is somewhere around this house that I live in. And instead of always concentrating on those bad things that we dwell on so much, I decided to dwell on the little things that in and of themselves are little blessings from God.

I wish that I could take more time to just break into a full out smile more often, or laugh until it hurts, because I truly am very blessed.

That's all

Kirstyn

We won our basketball game today! Woo Hoo! It's our second win of the season. We played King City today, and the game was neck and neck the whole way through. The score was tied at the end of third, and then we really stepped up and won the game! So way to go girls! Man, so much fun. We're really learning a lot, and playing like a team.

I can't wait till we play Unity on Monday. Way to go girls! TDCH rocks!

Kirstyn

Hello,
Today was an interesting day to say the least.
We (Everybody; me, you, us) have a tendency to judge people before actually getting to know them. We give them stereotypes. (Blonde, bully, smart kid) Occasionally though we get a chance to get to know these people, or see a differenct side of them. That happened to me today. Someone i thought that I had totally figured out showed me a different side of them, and now my attitude has changed. It was a surprising twist to the day.

Kirstyn

Hello,
It's me Kirstyn again. I'm actually in fourth period french right now. I should probably be writing in french, but frankly I don't feel like it. Beside me is my friend Marlee, she says hi. Very lovely. Anyways. Tonight I have a basketball game, It's a home game, and so I get to hang out after school with everyone, go to Timmy's, all that fun stuff.
Anyways I'll tell you if we win. Cross your fingers.
Kirstyn

Hello.
So this is my first blog for this new "blogspot" I have. This past weekend has been very exciting. Friday Night and Saturday all day long I went to a youth Conference called Change. It was awesome. The speakers were great, talking about media, faith, and culture. One talked about how Jesus wants to partner with us to talk to people about him, and share in this awesome relationship that we have with him.
Tree 63 did a concert on friday night. It was amazing. My cousin, abigail, came with me to the conference and it was so much fun to just see her again, and catch up.
The title of my blog is "Breaking.free.from.routine" and I think a lot of that has to do with actually having a relationship with Jesus Christ, not just knowing "about" Jesus, but AcTuAlLy knowing him, and being excited about what he wants to do in our lives. I guess being more than just Sunday Christians.
Anyways. I guess that's all for now.
(kirstyn)