Thursday, March 29, 2007

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Easy to read?
I think that my face shows what I'm thinking without me realizing it.
And then people guess what's going on around in my head,
and I honestly wonder how they knew that...

Maybe I need a different perspective.
Maybe i'll carry a mirror around all day,
and pull it out when I'm talking to people.

Monday, March 26, 2007

Something worth respect

Have you ever known someone for quite a while without actually really knowing them? I don't know it you'll understand what I'm trying to get at here, but there are certain people in life that you meet but never actually get to know.

For example, You know whether or not they have any siblings, you know what they enjoy doing with their free time, you know what they look like and how they act towards you but you know nothing about them as an individual.

You don't know what their views are on God or life. You don't know what they feel, or dream, or think about. You don't know why they like the activities that they do. You almost feel as if that person is never being "real" with you. Never willing to step out of their comfort zone in fear that they will get hurt, or judged.

I find that "friendships" like this are quite shallow in a way, because you have nothing to go on. You can't respect them for what they believe because you don't know why they believe it. You can't carry on a conversation with this person because you don't know what to talk about.

I know somebody like this, somebody I try very hard to get to know, to figure out, to respect, to understand. But no matter how hard I try I can't ever find anything I can relate with.

But today was different. For the first time I saw this person being real. The facade was gone, the wall they put up was gone, and all that was left was them. And for the first time, I saw something that wasn't fake, wasn't made up, but was real. I got a peek into their life, into who they were, into what they were going through. I could see that for this person it was a very hard thing to do. It was putting themselves on uncharted territory, left alone for people to judge them, to see into something probably very private and personal.

And for the very first time, I felt like maybe I could relate with something about this person. I felt like maybe I was finally getting something that was real. Something worth respect.


Sunday, March 18, 2007

Let it Rain

The LORD reigns
Let the earth be glad
Let the distant shores rejoice
Clouds and thick darkness surround him
Righteousness and justice are the foundations of his throne
Fire goes before him and consumes his foes on every side
His lightning lights up the world
The earth sees and trembles
The MOUNTAINS melt like wax before the LORD
Before the LORD of all the earth
The heavens proclaim his righteousness
And ALL peoples will see his Glory

Saturday, March 17, 2007


Girl: There's a thorn in my finger.
I know you can take it out, but that will be painful.

Gardener: I can remove it from your finger, but you're right. It will be painful.

Girl: Wouldn't it just be easier to let the thorn be?
The thorn is less painful than the process of removing it.

Gardener: Not in the long run. Trust me daughter.

Girl: I'm scared.

Gardener: Are you ready?

Girl: Yes, take it out.

Gardener: Alright.

Wednesday, March 14, 2007


So today I had my official first day of work. Basically just imagine 34 hyped up 6-8 year olds. I worked at a community centre today for the march break program from 9 in the morning till 5 in the evening. I am utterly exhausted.

Other than being exhausted I pretty much had a good day even though the kids didn't listen very well. I got to know some other people my age that I was working with, and the best part is, is that I'm actually getting paid.

So, I'm tired yet happy.

I go back on Friday.

Sunday, March 11, 2007

You are a flower in the garden of God...

Wednesday, March 07, 2007

I'm in love with the idea..

Ever been in Love with the idea more than the real thing?? For example, you'd love to become a famous pianist but in reality it would take painstaking hours of practice and preparation and you just simply are not ready for that.

Well, I found myself doing this over these past few days; being in Love with the idea. It comes back to my last post about imagination. You form an entire situation in your head, and before long it seems like its real. And then you snap back into reality and realize that nothing you just thought about actually happened.

Sometimes reality seems to be my enemy. Sometimes I wish I could actually have the super power to make my imaginations reality. Either that or have the power to fly, but that's getting off topic.

Anyways, this is just a warning to all of you out there in the world. Don't fall in Love with the idea, unless you're sure it'll become reality soon enough...

That's my thought for the day.


Monday, March 05, 2007

Runaway thoughts...

So, all day if felt like my mind was running away with me. I couldn't concentrate,

I didn't really want to concentrate.
Ever feel like you totally zone out from the world and enter the world of your imaginations?
Story of my day.

It's a dangerous thing, imaginations. Yet, it can be fun too. Lol, now i'm sounding crazy, trust me I'm not.

Anyways, sometimes I want to shut down my mind and focus on the task at hand. But it didn't seem like my mind wanted to do that today, and it doesn't look like it's gonna stop anytime soon.

Oh woe is me...

Sunday, March 04, 2007

yay for long weekends...


So, this weekend actually started out kind of bad. I was having one of those days where you feel sad for no reason at all. But then, there was a snow day. So, the bad weekend turned into a long weekend. Yesterday I went to this sweet acoustic Guitar concert in somebody's home. That was so much fun, because I've never actually been to a concert that size. It was more personal, and community related.

Anyways, then tonight I went to a "lenten series" service with the churches of Thornhill. It was actually pretty cool.

So, yay for long weekends, yay for acoustic guitars, yay for chocolate chip cookies, yay for Englischers, yay for naps on sunday afternoons, yay for meeting new people, yay for the internet...