Saturday, December 29, 2007

I have no idea where this is going....

I'm writing a song......


And once more all I have is a chorus. I'd share that chorus with you. But this song is being put under house arrest until I figure out whether or not it falls under the "too-personal-to-share- with-you" category. Unless of course you're in group 1 (going back to the previous post) then you'll most likely hear it.... eventually..... never before it's finished

But I'm getting majorly off topic here.


Anyways, The chorus expresses exactly how I feel. But it almost seems as though the chorus by itself pretty much states every idea I wanted to get across at that specific time of composing. I have no idea what I want to say anymore, or where I want to go with the song. I have so many ideas, but none of them fit right. I know it will come eventually. It always seems to. That's how it was with "All for Love"

I need to figure out what I want to say before I can write it...................

Wow, I'm boring myself.


Thursday, December 27, 2007

There are people in everyone's life
that try and get you to talk with them
about stuff that's going on in your life.

These people can further be broken down into two groups:

Group #1

Those you go on to share that stuff with. (You know who you are. Thanks so much)

Group #2

Those you don't.

Plain and simple. Right?

I guess the difficulty comes in when you get people in Group #2
who think they are in Group #1.


there..that'll teach you to make me write 21 stupid pages...

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

I think one of my favourite things about holidays is forgetting what day it is. It's good to do that every once in a while.

Also, I've decided (actually no, I knew this all along. I just decided to write about it today) that I hate being the third wheel. And if you don't know what that is, look it up.

Relationships often get in the way of friendships. And it sucks. And it sucks being the third wheel. And yea... that's it.

Sunday, December 23, 2007

Christmas Holiday

I'm Free at Last.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Fourth Christmas present.
Biology quest tomorrow.
Frustrated with my face.
Needing to snowboard.
Tired of Homework.
Roughest play run-through.
Feeling cold.
Hoping for snow.
Questioning everything.
Keeping the good.
Trusting in God.

Been Listening To: Washed in the Water - Needtobreathe.

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

We don't know when!

It bothers me when people say "I think that Jesus is going to be coming back in the next _______" and then they give a time frame. Year, Decade, Century, whatever.

I guess it just irks me because it says in the bible that nobody knows the time or day when He'll return. There's practically a whole chapter talking about it in 2 Thessalonian! Paul tells the people to not be easily fooled by the ones that tell them that the time of the Lord has arrived.

There are so many things I still want to accomplish in this lifetime. And call me sacreligious but I don't know if I'm ready for Jesus to return yet. I don't fully know. What I do know is that when he comes back it's going to be the single best thing the world has ever seen aside from possibly the beginning. But that doesn't mean I'm done living on this earth yet. It sounds immature, and it probably is. But at least I'm being honest.

He could come back tomorrow, or He could come back a million years from now. Nobody knows.

So don't say that you do.

It's not about the time. It's not about being right or wrong. It's about knowing that God's looking out for us, and that all we need to do is live in the truth, and search it out.

I'm good as long as Jesus knows the time he's gonna come back here. And I'm 100% positive He's got that date covered.


Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Highlighters Five Bucks and Vienna: My scattered thoughts of the night.

I've discovered that I love using highlighters. I think I may be addicted to using them while studying. It's like I'm reviewing my notes and I see a headline or a definition, and automatically out comes my bright yellow pocket accent highlighter and bam! headline is highlighted.

Without that extra colour of yellow on my study notes its as if the words jumble together and I can't make sense of anything.

On another note:

I found five bucks today. That's fun.


Have any of you heard of the song "Vienna" by the Fray? I love it. But to this day, I'm still trying to figure out what it means. I've come up with so many different interpretations of it. What are your thoughts?

On another another note:

Vienna makes me think of Austria.
Austria makes me think of Europe.
makes me think of my time in Germany.
Which makes me think of Gabi and Henry.
Which makes me think of Bjoern, Dennis, Helen, and the cousins.
Which makes me miss Germany a lot.
Especially during Christmas time.
It makes me want to cry sometimes.

It makes me think What are you doing for Christmas? Do you miss me too?

I want to be there with you.


Saturday, December 15, 2007

I spend way to much of my life doing homework.

Friday, December 14, 2007


Sometimes I wonder if I shy away from opportunity.

Yea... I'll add more later after I think about it more.

Tuesday, December 11, 2007

If you want to know who I place you'll be sure to find something is in my music

I was just downstairs playing around on the piano in my living room. I was switching between the songs that I've written over the past year or so and I was just thinking back to events that influenced the songs. Each one that I've written has been inspired by something, someone, or some place. There's great significance in each one for me, because each one communicates something I've gone through. My music is a true and raw expression of me. And every time I play one of them it helps me remember what events in my life have brought me closer to Him. I think one of the hardest things to do would be to sing a song that you 1. don't understand, and 2. cannot relate to. And by not being able to relate I mean not having experienced whatever is being experienced in the song.

"I'm just a girl who's holding fast to a promise that he has a plan for my life"
"And I have trials and hopes and secrets and things about me, but do these things define me?"
"So If you don't care, then just don't flatter me"
"Don't you know you're playing with my heartstrings?"
"It's crazy what she'll do for love.... It's amazing what he'll do to love her"
"So this is what it feels like to fly"
"Hear my whisper to your soul"
"I miss you but I'm happy you're in heaven now with Jesus."

These are all pieces of me. These are things that have brought me to where I am right now.

And the cool thing with music is the fact that what a song means to me, might end up meaning something totally different to someone else. It's up for interpretation.


Sunday, December 09, 2007

Dear (insert your name here),

You know how to love, because I loved you first. If I did not love you, you would not be capable of loving anything or anyone. I am Love.


Saturday, December 08, 2007

Light could possibly be

one of the most glorious and beautiful things on the planet.
I think its God's way of saying "I am the author of creativity."
Be aware of it these next few days. Take the time to see how beautiful it is.

Thursday, December 06, 2007

Collosians 3:4 (The Message)

I had two really interesting discussions with two very different people today. The discussions were completely opposite, but both of them had an impact on my day.

The first discussion I must say was a direct blessing from Jesus for me today. I've been sharing with you that sometimes I find it really hard to live with passion and intensity at my school. And today I had an amazing talk with someone who understood where I was coming from. A lot of times It feels as though I'm completely alone, and I have to hold on tightly to what I believe, less it be swept away. But her and I encouraged one another to continue living boldly. I think Jesus gives us lifelines like this sometimes as a way of saying, "Hey look, I've placed you here for a reason. I'm still here working in your life, and I'm working in other lives too. "

The second discussion made me feel that I was just completely misunderstood all over again. It's difficult when you come across two Christians with two different viewpoints that both believe they are right. What do you do with that? It's so hard to hold onto what you believe to be true when 1. That person believes something else is the truth, and 2. they don't understand you. I can't really give specifics about the discussion, but I must say this. I think that someone must first understand the power and reality of the Holy Spirit in our lives before they can understand the spiritual warfare that goes on in our world, and its effect on us. No one person can make somebody else understand the Spirit. Only the Holy Spirit can make us understand Him. Therefore I feel very stuck with this discussion. I really don't know why God's placed me in this situation yet.


Wednesday, December 05, 2007

My thoughts should never 'run away with me'.
Because that implies that I'm not in control of myself, or my thoughts.
And that's just silly.

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Oh how He loves us......

If grace is an ocean,
we're all sinking.