Sunday, January 27, 2008

I don't think I'll ever forget.

So I'm kind of thinking that girls have the tendency to blow things way out of proportion.

(I say girls because if I said guys too, I really would not have any idea what I was talking about. Because I'm a girl, and haven't talked to many boys about this particular kind of thing.)

Anyway, I just think that sometimes we make a big deal out of really small things. And like I said before in a previous blog, I have trained myself not to read between the lines. But sometimes my old self wants to slip into that similar rut. And sometimes I don't catch it at first, but I always do eventually, and pull myself out.

But seriously, I think that we all have chronic "me" syndrome, where we think the world revolves around us.
When it doesn't.
We do it subconsciously.
We're so worried about what other people think about us when really they're not thinking about us at all.

The point I'm trying to make is that meeting someone once does not automatically mean that you know them or they know you.
I think a lot of time its the idea that people fall in "like" with.
I'm cautious to use the word "love", because people throw that word around so loosely.
I don't.
But still, I can't shake the fact that meeting them once had a big impact on me.
It made me write a song after all.
And for me that's pretty big.
I'd like to ask God exactly what the point of my meeting that one person was.

To anybody other than me, it would look like a stupid insignificant event, but it wasn't.
Not really.
But here I am trying to convince myself that it was.
It's all so trivial.
It's all so naive.


K

1 comment:

andy said...

i think there's a danger in realizing that not everything revolves around you.
i think there's a greater danger in over-trivializing stuff than in being self-centered. partly because no one tends to recognize the danger in it, if they can even notice it in you.
everyone knows it's easy to spot the self-centered people.

we're in high school -- everything will seem trivial in a matter of months... don't let it all be trivial right now.

or maybe i'm wrong.