Yea. I don't know.
They say distance makes the heart grow fonder.
But is it just an illusion of heightened fondness?
Because sometimes it's easier during the moments before you find out what the real picture looks like.
Like right before you find out if you got a part in the school play. Or the moment before you find out if you aced the midterm or not.
Or I guess before you find out if he has an inkling of fondness towards you as well.
Maybe not knowing is better.
Maybe the illusion of fondness is better than the crashing reality of lack there of.
Maybe imagining having the lead, or acing the test is better than actually knowing.
Am I convincing you?
Yea didn't think so.
Haven't convinced myself either.
In then end, you still just want to know.