Beautiful people

I'm back from Honduras.
I find that when you get back home after one of these trips, the whole experience seems so far away. Like it never happened, or like it happened to someone else.

But I know it happened to me, because my heart is invested into it. I can still remember the way I felt, and what I was going through on a day to day basis.
I can't compare the trip to anything else that I've experienced. It was it's own thing.

It stretched me, and pulled me in a lot of different directions. But it was completely worth it.

A little laughter.
A few tears.
A budding romance.
Some tiny fears.

An outlook opened.
Compassion from the heart.
Work completed.
Right from the start.

But this is part of the journey. The journey of discovering myself and discovering the world around me. And I've realized even more that love breaks barriers down. It doesn't distinguish between language, culture, or religion. But it brings you closer together with people you never even knew existed.
All I know is that I am incredibly blessed. I can't forget that. Because I'm slightly embarrassed at all the things that I have.

K

I'm listening to one of the songs on my album as I type. We're almost finished the songs. Dave, my producer is just adding the last touches.
This whole project is so much bigger and greater than I ever thought it was going to be.
It's been a wonderful adventure.

I officially finished all of the things on my list. Yay. Now all I have to do is wait for Monday morning to come. HONDURAS HERE I COME!!

The theme song for Anne of Green Gables is definitely one of the most romantic songs ever. I was playing it on piano earlier today, and it just brings you back to the movie full swing.

Anyways, that's pretty much all I have to say. I'm going to go eat some food.

K

Break.

Yay. I'm on March break.
I am leaving for Honduras on Monday morning.
But I don't really feel like I'm on March Break yet.
There are so many things I have to do before I leave in 3 days.

Math Homework
Book Log 2
Staff Training
Make a list of things to take to Honduras
Pack for Honduras
School of Champions

I don't know. I can't picture myself in Honduras yet.
I think it's going to be a huge culture shock when I actually get there.
I'm hoping that God will show my something new.
I'm expecting this trip to be spectacular. I'm expecting it to stretch me, to make me feel emotionally and physically drained.
I'm on Holiday. Technically.

K

I hate that a number tells me how imperfect I am.
That a percent has the power to provide me with thousands of dollars.
I hate that learning and experience are not what's important anymore but rather a number out of a hundred.
I hate it when teachers tell me to not be so concerned with marks, when the world tells me I need to.
I hate that the reality is, in fact, that marks do matter.
I'm not perfect.
I don't want to be.
But the world has an expectation.
And for this season of my life, that expectation has to matter to me. Because that's just the way the system works.
I hate the system.

I think it's stupid.

K

A New Season

Today, myself, and a group of 20 or so other kids my age have lost someone very dear and near to our hearts. Today was the farewell Sunday service for my youth pastor, Pastor Mark.

I found this news out about a month ago, and these last four weeks at youth have been a combination of fun times and serious times where our youth group has gotten a lot closer. I think goodbye's do that to people.

I don't think I realized how much we're all going to miss Pastor Mark until I went up to say goodbye this afternoon. I had been able to hold back the tears and emotions quite easily during the service, but something just hit me when I realized that I wouldn't be seeing our favourite youth pastor every Friday anymore, and that I wouldn't we hearing all of his corny, yet amazing jokes on a regular basis.
Saying goodbye made me realize how much of an impact Pastor Mark has had on our lives these past few years. He has been such an encouragement to me and to my friends.
I didn't think I was going to cry, but I think we all shared a few tears today.

But I know God has something even greater things in store for this youth ministry. And I just wanted to take the time to bless PM and his family in their new ministry. We're all going to miss you guys a whole lot. And I'm never going to forget how faithful you've been to us, and all the words of truth and encouragement you've spoken into our lives. It's definitely been a journey. And I'm blessed to have been a part of it.

K

I am so tired.
It's that kind of tired where gravity seems to be pulling your body down to the floor.
It's like tired after you've cried a million hours.

And you said that you weren't going to let
anyone get in the way of the plans you have for me.
So, I'm hoping that still stands.
Because, boy do I need that now.

This kind of pressure prevents me from thinking straight. I can't decipher whether I'm actually being treated unfairly, or whether I'm just making excuses.

School is making me tired. I actually can't wait for the weekend.

Anyone and absolutely everyone is invited!

Check out the facebook group "Kirstyn Krause's CD Release Concert."
There will be a live band playing with me on the night of, along with one of my great friends opening the concert with a few songs.
CD's will be on sale for $15 before and after the concert.
If you can't make it to the concert but still want to buy a CD you can email: TheHeart@sympatico.ca
It's going to be a great night.
K