God's been continuing to reveal his love to me this week. Earlier on in my "God's love" post I listed what God told me his love was like. And yesterday he showed me his love in Colour. I wasn't looking for it, and I wasn't expecting it. I was just worshiping him, and focusing in on him when all of the sudden I got this picture in the front of my mind of colour spouting out from two holes. Blue was coming from the left side of the picture, and red from the right side. And they started mixing together and forming this beautiful solution of blues, and reds, and purples.

The colours had a consistency of molten lava. They were hot, and bubbling, and swirling around. The colours just kept on coming and mixing together. It almost seemed as if the flow of the colours was related to rythym, and tempo of the worship music. (The colours would pour faster when the tempo got faster etc.)

The cool part about this picture that I got in my head was that it wasn't like some crazy spiritual encounter or anything. It wasn't as if I were "slain in the spirit" or "unaware of my surroundings" but there was just a peace that came over me. It was like God was saying, "Hey, In the midst of your worship, I'm just going to bless you by revealing my love to you. This is my love in colour."

I think the fact that colour was the first on the list of describing words for God's love in my previous post, and the fact that God revealed his love in colour to me first as well is really significant. I've never experienced or even thought that his love could have any more description than a really strong feeling. But now I know better.

This may sound crazy to you, but this is what God is doing in my life right now. This is true, and real.

Kirstyn

Patience.

Everyday of life is filled with waiting.
Is anticipation better than the actual moment?
In some ways yes, in some ways no.
I'm not very good at

Patience.

Is being misunderstood the best thing or the worst thing?
I think that being understood by few and
misunderstood by many is ideal.

Why do we try to be profound?

God's Love

Thinking of My love as simply a strong feeling towards you is like drawing a single dot on a piece of blank white paper.

My love has colour, shape, design, creativity. It's 3 dimensional, it lives, it moves, it breaths, it has personality.

Ephesians 3: 16-19

I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT THIS!!

All for Love?

It's crazy what we do for love.
There is a yearning in all of us to love and to be loved. I understand that, I feel that, I've experienced that.
I suppose it's about how you go about getting love or giving love in a sense.
We all seem to look in different places.
One situation in particular has been brewing around in my brain all day long and I can't seem to shake it. Maybe I have no right to think about it, and I probably have even less right to speak about it because its not my business.
"Drama" is overrated.
I guess the question is: What is love worth to us? Is it worth giving up your friendships? Is it worth changing who you are? There are all these worldly misconceptions about love, and its all a lie. Love should not be determined by our feelings. For if we rely on feelings alone without truth involved then we are lost. Literally. We begin to lose sight of who we are. And we do this all for love, love that isn't real.

I'm only beginning to understand my heavenly Daddy's love for me. I try to wrap my mind around what that unselfish, unconditional, overpowering, passionate love is like. I can't imagine it, yet Jesus loves me like that. I've been reveling in being single. Simply because there's no way I can understand romantic love if I am still trying to grasp what Daddy's love is for me.

If I'm gonna find love in a guy like so many of my friends are searching for these days, man I better start looking towards heaven, because that is where I'm gonna find truth on how to love and be loved.

My list of things to do.

So, about half a year ago I wrote a "Things I Want To Do In This Lifetime" list in my diary. Some of them are serious, some of them silly. Pretty much ranging from the classic "Get married" or "Go to University" to things more superficial and easy like "Get a pedicure".

Anyways, today I was reminded of the list that I wrote and so I pulled out my diary. I don't write in my diary nearly enough because honestly I like typing a lot more than I do writing. But, I do enjoy reading back on what I've written.

My point is, is that as I was reading the list there were 2 or 3 things on that list that I have actually accomplished and could check off my list. And the most important of those 2 or 3 was my Number Five on that list: Be in a Play. Come this February I will be in the production of "The Diary of Anne Frank" at my school. I was cast as Margot Frank, the older sister. Ideally I would have loved to be Anne herself, but I've been praying about this play for a long time, and I feel honoured to have made it, especially considering that many people that tried out did not.

Over these past few months I have developed a new attitude where I want to experience new things, and be more creative. God is the author of creativity, and I feel that there's something special about expressing yourself musically, artistically, and in this case dramatically.

This whole "Play" thing is totally new to me. I've never been in a play, and I have no idea what to expect. I just know that it will be so much fun, and I'm ready to face anything that comes my way.

Kirstyn

Can you keep a secret guys?

good, so can I

My Interpretation of Proverbs 3:5

I trust you Jesus with all that I am; everything I'm going through; my whole situation.
I trust in You instead of trusting in myself; instead of reading between the lines, and trying to figure out the final outcome without having all the facts. I need to trust in you.

My mind is swimming with thoughts right now that I shall try and write down:

It's too late to talk to you because you live halfway across the universe.
Hating to love someone?
I had my sights set on that school this morning, but now I can't find St. George!
"I know almost for certain that Margot would never kiss anyone unless she was engaged to them"
You need to chill out.
I've had that meal three times in one weekend and its still just as yummy as the first time I had it.
The last day of warm weather?
I can wait until Friday.
How come its so easy to forget? So easy to be selfish with what I have?

That makes no sense whatsoever. But I don't care.


Please come and calm my thoughts. Give me clarity, peace, and wisdom. Ah! I need you so badly. Don't forget about me. Answer the desires of my heart, and make me more like you today.

This week has been good for me. There is a refugee conference for all Gr. 11's at my school and it's really opened my mind a bit. God's been speaking to me this week about several things regarding refugees, and Rwanda, and just about his truth and generosity in general. I'm really not sure how I'm going to respond in terms of spending my time, money, effort, or influence yet, but I'll be praying about it. It's good to stay aware.

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On another note, I'm REALLY excited about what God's doing in my life so far this year, and what he's going to do! I'll keep you updated, but for now that's all I'm going to say.