Becoming Jane

*This may spoil the movie for those of you who haven't seen it and still want to*

So today felt like the perfect movie day. It's a cool, fall, Saturday afternoon and so my mom and I headed out to see the latest romantic drama "Becoming Jane". It was this movie that made me contemplate the saying "It's better to have loved and lost, than to never have loved before." Is it true, or would it really be better to spare yourself the heartache? I don't know if I could have done it, if I could have been so noble as to put Tom (Jane's lover) and his family over my love for him. Could I walk away like she had?

I guess it makes me thankful to live in the present. In these days, when you love someone, you marry them. You don't have to be rich, or in the right family in order to be successful. In those days you were born into success. You couldn't work yourself up, and there was no middle ground. So what of poverty stricken couples in love? Is tragedy all that was ever to become of their relationships?

Jane never married again, and neither did her sister. I think the actors did a wonderful job of showing the desire for companionship in the other. Especially when meeting again. There was that air of regret, of what could have been, but never would have been.

The perfect way to describe "Becoming Jane" would be "Tragically Romantic"

I am totally and completely exhausted. I've had basketball practice after school now for two days in a row. On top of that I guess it's just homework, and learning, and seeing everyone again that is making me so tired. And possibly getting up at 6:50 every morning. But I'm rambling. It's hard getting back into the swing of things, but it feels good at the same time. It feels like every day I get one step closer to accomplishing so many goals that I've set for myself this year. Every day contributes, and every minute of hard work will pay off in the end. I guess I'm being overly optimistic, but that's a good thing right? Don't rain on my parade. Anyways, I'm doing pretty good, in spite of being tired.

Enough of Code, let's be real.
Don't read between the lines.
This time I will not fail.

I wasn't going to post anything today, but I checked out my "People visiting my blog" map and found another red dot had appeared on it. So it encouraged me.

Today at School felt like I was finally get the hang of things again. Sure, I miss the summer, but life goes on. I made a promise to myself after Germany to enjoy life day by day. I find that if you don't, then you end up missing out on other cool experiences that come across your path because you're too busy wishing to be in another place at another time.

Anyways, today was a good day. I got a long, good, sleep last night. I understood the lesson in Gr. 11 U math. I made scones to accompany the jam that my good friend brought me from her vacation in England, and I finished reading a good book. Now, some of you may not think that that is anything spectacular, but I'd classify it as a good day.

Gr. 11. It's crazy that I'm already in Gr. 11 because I can still remember my first day of Gr. 9. Getting on the Bus, and thinking I was so cool. To think that I'm a Senior student already (Sophomore if you're reading from the states), is just crazy. Time goes so fast.

I've figured out that this year will be a good year if I want it to be. People don't realize that attitude and being positive has SO much to do with how your day turns out. Honestly it does. Let's see what God's gonna do in my life this year.

Kirstyn

Drama

What is it with the excessive amounts of drama in teenage life these days? Now, I don't mean drama as in putting on a play, or memorizing lines, I'm talking about full out soap opera. Do we not have enough to deal with already? I mean, between dealing with homework, friends, sports, and other extra curricular activities is there really any more space and time for somebody else to lump their problems onto your already busy life? I think not. My life is void of this so called "drama" and honestly, that makes me pretty darn happy.

Sluggish

I feel so sluggish today. It's one of those days where you have nothing to do, and even when you feel like you do have something to do, you don't want to do it. The hours tick by slowly, and you normally just end up with the TV turned on, watching pointless half an hour sitcoms waiting for something interesting to happen. It's incredibly lazy, and incredibly laid back. I don't like it.

Maybe it's because school is starting tomorrow. I can't seem to get over the fact that the summer went by pretty darn fast. I guess I don't really know what to expect from this year. I'm trying to get excited, but honestly right now I'm just not. This last day of summer vacation is always like this. You're on the in-between. You realize summer is coming to a close, and that a new chapter is starting in your life. Is it good, is it bad? You just simply don't know.

Normally I'm excited by this time. I'm ready to start school again, I'm ready for new things that are going to come my way. But this year I just don't feel it. I'm just not getting into the of anticipation and eagerness that comes when September starts. Oh well, I'll let you know how I'm doing.

Kirstyn

Flying = Freedom = Real

Standing at the top of a castle
Learning a new language
Painting your nails black
Watching the waves on a beach at sundown
Dancing even when you know you can't
Learning how to drive
Meeting new friends
Crying
Doodling
Saying Goodbye

These things all have something in common for me.