You show me chivalry ain't dead.

Deep down somewhere in the core of my being,
and I can especially feel it when I play my music,
and I can especially feel it lately for some odd reason,
I think I'm a hopeless romantic.

But for now, I guess, it's still a season of keeping that tucked away for later use...

yup.

K

So, I'm going to be on TV next Friday.
I'm playing a little music on York Region Daytime.
Which is cable channel 63 I believe.
You can check it out at 11am, 3pm, and 5pm.
It's gonna be fun.

K

Tabula Rasa

I was really thinking about my relationship with God last night, and how it relates to every other aspect in my life. It's been pretty rough lately, I'd say just because I'm in a point of transition. Everything in my life feels like it's up in the air. Music, University, Friendships, Relationships, Work, Church, Activites. Everything's changing all at once.

But, I got this crazy picture in my head from God last night. I asked him if we could start over. If, in this changing part of my life, we could start with a blank slate.

And so, I saw myself pushing a heaping unorganized pile of stuff that symbolized my life off of a floor. I cleared off the floor by putting all the stuff on the edges and said "There, let's start with a clean slate, a clean floor, just you and me"
And God said to me,
"That's not how we start with a clean slate. It really won't accomplish anything if you sweep everything off to the side. If we're gonna start new and fresh then we need to deal with that stuff."
So, then I got a picture of all of that stuff, representing my life, organized into a tiny little office. The office had bookshelves, and a desk, drawers, and every other thing you could imagine that would help to organize a working space.
And God said to me, "If we're gonna start fresh, you can give me your pile of stuff, and we'll organize it together. One day at a time. And I'll hold onto your dreams, your aspirations, your relationships, your school situation. It's all here in this space. I'll be watching over it."

That was really powerful because I realized then that I had had the impression that starting with a blank slate meant that I needed to get my relationship with God in order before I could start dealing with the mess in my life. And once I had established this working relationship with him, the result would be me being able to figure out where I stand in this transition.

But for God, it's not like that. Not only does he want to start fresh and new, but he wants to help me deal with my stuff at the same time. In fact, starting new MEANS dealing with the stuff. My relationship with God is not separate from the different aspects of my life, but rather an interconnected factor that influences it.

That's cool.

K

4 day weekends are sweet man!

Update on my time at Glendon.

I have successfully finished my first class in all six of my courses.
I can already tell that it's going to be a lot of work. But, who are we kidding, I expected that.
My "List of things to do" is already stretching from here to Timbuktu, which makes me thankful for my 4 day weekends, those of which I will be spending the majority of my time doing homework.

I went to my first Gospel Choir Rehearsal today! I couldn't wipe the smile off my face. It was absolutely fantastic, completely worth my time taking the shuttle from Glendon to Keele. I'm going to love it.

My French classes: I feel that they will be helpful in terms of improving my french, but whether or not they will be fun... that is yet to be seen. Probably not. We'll see. I want to stay optimistic. I really want to spend this year applying myself to speak, read, and listen to la langue française hors de l'école (outside of the classroom).

In terms of extra curricular.. not sure yet what I'll have time for. I tried to sign up for Glendon Christian Fellowship, but they seem to meet on all the days that I am not available. Tuesday nights, when I'm at the Gospel Choir at Keele, Monday nights when I work, and Thursdays when I'm not at school. So, we'll see how that works out.

Needless to say, I'm coming home tired (more like wiped) everyday, and I am in the midst of getting over a cold.
Eugh...but I'm content.

K

University Student

If you take a look at my 'About Me' section. You'll see one thing that has changed. I went from being a High School student to one in University.

I had my first official day of University today. Two, three hour classes from 9-3pm. Not that bad considering my first class let out 45 minutes early, and my second 2 hours early.

My courses?

French - Grammar
French - Oral and Phonetics
Communication, Health, and Environment
Intro to Psych
Thinking and Writing Critically
Gospel Choir

Being on a campus like Glendon, regardless of the fact that I'm living at home, makes me feel inspired. Maybe I'm speaking to fast, and need to wait until the dead of winter when I'm up to my eyebrows in readings, tests, and papers. But, it's a change. And I think that overall it's going to be a positive one.

I've probably been sounding a little bit like a broken record these days in my posts, but give the girl a break, she just started UNIVERSITY!

First day of classes - survived.
Thank you very much.
First week of classes - finished... (considering I only have classes Monday through Wednesday and today is Wednesday and classes started today)

My 4 day weekend is looking ever so lovely.
Tomorrow is the ugly task of spending oodles of money on textbooks that I'll probably never use after this year. Oh the joys.

K

Waiting game.

I guess I've just been feeling a little out of it lately.
It seems like everything around me is changing so quickly.
And it's all good. But good change doesn't stop you from needing to make adjustments.

There are a lot of 'Firsts' happening in my life right now.
With University looming, and new friendships, my head is spinning a little bit.

When change happens, it's so easy to worry. It's so easy to try and juggle everything you've got going on by yourself.

But, I've been taking every day this past week one step at a time.
We'll just do one day at a time.
And see how it goes from there.

So, If I think about it. This is really the last day of my summer vacation. Because Frosh Week begins tomorrow!

I should do something terribly epic today.
But I'm out of ideas.

I'm going to a party tonight though! That's exciting.

K