Friday, February 05, 2010

Right where I want you.

I've been feeling lately that I really do not have much to talk about.
Someone will ask me how I am, and I respond with fine, busy, or tired. Those answers sound like cop-outs, and I find myself searching my brain to try and come up with a better answer. I come up blank.

There really is nothing much going on. I go to school, I study, I finish work and assignments.
I go to the pool on Mondays and Thursdays to work, and I spend my weekends seeing some friends when lucky.
I'm still writing songs - when I have time.
But, I even find myself with a lack of time for doing that.

I need to spend less time in front of the TV.

Sometimes I wonder to God. I say to Him, Where are you taking me? What's your plan? What's next? I tell Him that I have no idea.
Sometimes I feel that that's exactly where He wants me.
That in these times of transition is when He's speaking to me the clearest.
I'll hear him at the most unexpected times.
Where do you find your identity when life is in the shadows?

Because it's now more than ever, In the foggy land of my future that I just need to wait. Wait on Him...

So, you can ask me how I'm doing. And I really won't know how to answer you right now. But, I still know that He's at work. In His mysterious and loving way.

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