Thousands in the red, and it doesn't stop me.

So, I asked God if He can compete with $200 000 today.

Compete is the wrong word though. As if He EVER has to compete.

I should have asked, "So God, what do you have next for me?"

Money, or lack there of, can't stop him.

Stop calling me names.

Who says that just because I find that I'm good at one specific thing that I have to pursue that 100%. Who says that that has to be my one specific calling.

I can do whatever the heck I want with my life.

Who says that I can't combine them all.

Don't put a box around me.

Someone subtly told me that people with great talent also have great responsibility. It ticked me off. The compliment turned into expectation.

The show was a thrill.
It's over now.
That's the thing with the theater,
you put so much work into it and then it ends so quickly.

Was it worth it you ask?
Definitely.

I don't think anything is worth doing unless you give it you're all.
How then will you ever discover your potential?
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It's hard to say no to someone you respect so much.
It's easy for someone you don't like.
It's important to take care of your heart.

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It's hard that its done.
But I'm ok with change.
Life goes on.
Good things go, good things come.
It's about enjoying every minute, reveling in it, and then when its over, it's over.

My heart is burning with passion

Maybe it's just me, but generally I like to believe that it's not.

We all have times during our lives where God is trying to teach us something. Where He's trying to speak to us, stretch us, and make us more into the daughter or son that He wants us to be.

I'm DEFINATELY in one of those phases.

I just have no idea where He's going to take me yet. Which is generally the story of faith.

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I don't understand unconditional love. I believe in it. I know that Jesus loves me unconditionally. It's a beautiful thing. But I can't comprehend it.

When I first got cast as Nina in 'The Seagull' I felt like I had nothing in common with her. It felt like Her and I were completely different in every way. Which was an exciting challenge.

Now, after taking on that challenge I am seeing that Her and I are incredibly similar.
It took me a while to realize, but The Seagull is all about this unconditional love that I am trying so hard to understand. I see Jesus written all over the show. I'm 'jumping-out-of-my- seat' excited to perform it.

K

In order to live up to the adventure

1. Start painting again.
2. Get G2.
3. Learn how to drive stick.
4. Fill out my recipe book by learning how to cook.
5. Allow Mom to teach me how to sow.
6. Write a letter to wonderful friend in Quebec.
7. Work.
8. Read.
9. Plan perfect prank for youth camp.
10. Go to Hillsong United conference.
11. Go to Brampton and see Kristen.
12. Hang out with brother downtown.
13. Buy new Chucks.

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What if we weren't poetic at all?
Can I call myself fluent in English if I probably don't even use or know the meaning of at least half of the words?
Can I really deny a walk with a good friend on a blue sky spring day?
What would it be like if I didn't justify myself after doing something wrong? Wasn't that what Jesus was did? Not that I want to be "like" Jesus. I want him to live in me. Our relationship is not set on responsibility but the ability to respond*. It's dynamic; living.

What if I'm so done with being busy?

We've been conditioned to reject passion.
Don't be radical about anything they tell us.
WHY NOT ??!
Jesus was the most radical person ever.
Political correctness really bothers me. So does money, and constant advertisements.
My brother says that last one is just a stage though.

* Read The Shack

How do they do it?

How do they sign their life away at 19 with a diamond ring?
How do they date someone after knowing them for just 2 weeks?
How can they possibly know who they are yet?
How can they put themselves in a box?
It's beyond me.

To think that people get married at 19 is crazy for me to think about.
Probably because at 19 I still won't have had a serious relationship.
I guess there are always exceptions to the rule.
But still.

p.s. I can check Theory: Gr. 2 Rudiments off the list. But I still don't know what 'poca a poca stringendo' means.